time and relative dimension in space

So queer_fest has opened the prompts list for claiming. I'm considering claiming one, but none of the prompts are directly inspiring me yet and, y'know. Painful amounts of writer's block. :| We'll see.

Anyone who is remotely interested in it, though, go forth and claim!

(A few of my prompts have been claimed already, which makes me really dorkily excited omg. Especially since two of them are for fandoms I was certain no one else would be interested in writing.)


I realize I've never exactly been a prolific writer but I do miss being able to write somewhat more frequently than I have been for the past couple years.

It is almost October and here it is still warm enough to call for tank tops, flip flops, and me putting my hair up in a bun to get it off my neck. AC is still on most of the time. Milkshakes and going swimming and cold lemonade are still appealing ideas.

I miss cold weather. I miss coats, and scarves, and gloves. I miss blankets, and hot cocoa with mini marshmallows, and hot showers in a cold room. I miss snow and gray chilly days and wind that cuts through you.

I hate transition seasons.

Just got back from the dentist. Yes, again. This is probably going to be a regular thing for a while. I promise not to tell you every single time it happens, though. But this time my mouth is numb, I'm probably bleeding, I can still taste anesthetic, and I'm on a soft diet with no soda for the next three days, so I'm going to whinge in my journal for a bit.

WTF do you mean no soda. :( :( :(

...my priorities may be slightly skewed.

Restructuring the whole BTIS 'verse in my head. Considering giving it a nonlinear structure (but not quite sure how that would work with the main storylines) or possibly a framing device (maybe a Behind the Music sort of thing? but who would do a BTM thing on a band that's just kind of a big deal on the Internet?) but the current structure isn't working for me. In any case, if I'm doing it for NaNo, I still have a month before I have to actually have a structure firmly in mind.

In other news, I haven't left the house in several days. I am fairly sure that most people would consider this a Bad Thing. Can I self-diagnose myself with Avoidant Personality Disorder? Because I think it might fit.

It's not like I'm actually getting anything done...despite the mental restructuring of BTIS, it's not like I'm actually writing anything. I finished backing up my music collection, which is...only important if you're crazy and OCD like me. I am considering applying as a researcher to one of those text-message-search-engine thingies because then I could earn money without leaving the house, and also I can't find any jobs I'm qualified for in my actual field. So, yeah, basically I'm not doing anything. At all.

Blah.

Um. In the 'less depressing' category...uh...I forgot I preordered the Kings DVD box set, so getting the shipping notice cheered me up a bit. Yay, Jack! I sold another book on Half.Com. There is new Glee and Dollhouse this week (right?) although no new Psych. I've got like half a dozen things being shipped to me right now...I hope they arrive soon.

Oh! And I've now been introduced to the ridiculousness that is xkcdsw. I think this is my favorite of the ones I've seen so far.

And we have chocolate chip cookies and chocolate frosting.

...I kind of fail at life a bit.

Can't...brain...properly...

I managed to do a little Rift stuff, but not as much as I want to. What I have failed to do, along with that: write up a bio for my new job (no more than 125 words, and that's all the guideline they gave me WTF I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE LOOKING FOR I HATE WRITING BIOS); answer a couple outstanding e-mails; upload and post picspams from that meme a few posts back; other Rift stuff. But I can't brain properly for any of it, which is frustrating.

It probably doesn't help that the Internet spent part of the day being broken. But honestly I likely still wouldn't have gotten anything done if it hadn't been.

(I did, however, mount a bunch of my posters and autographed pictures on cardboard and finally get around to hanging them in my room. LAZY FOR THE WIN. I also hurt my thumb somehow while doing it. I DON'T KNOW.)

iTunes has been consolidating my library for something like 24 hours now. It is still not done. It looks like it'll be done by late tonight, though.

Also, this is depressing the hell out of me. Why does NBC hate me? WHY?

This, on the other hand, is something everybody should see.

And there's a new episode of the [title of show] show!

...I move into my new apartment on Monday, start work on Tuesday, rehearsals officially start on the next Saturday and oh my LORD what am I doing I can't be an adult *hides*

No, seriously! I told my mom that there's a 50/50 chance of me surviving this or drowning completely, and she told me there's no chance of me drowning, and fifteen seconds later is talking about all the ways I'm like to fail, like my extreme difficulty motivating myself to do things I don't want to do, and how hard it is for me to talk to people, and how standing up for myself is something that happens erratically, and all that and you know I'm going to drown trying to do this.




Snagged from super_kc:
Reply to this post, and I will tell you my favorite icon(s) of yours. Then post this to your own journal using your own favorite icon. Repost it if you want, if not just let me have fun looking through your icons to tell you my favorite(s).

I have a lot of trouble picking my one favorite icon, and it varies from hour to hour, but right now this is it because a) Once love and b) I really like the way the coloring turned out.

ARRRRRRRRGH.

So, yeah, remember that whole "stuck at work 'til the dance company finishes" thing? Yeah. So after I finished locking up for Nutcracker (at about 9:30) I asked them -- very nicely -- to let me know when they were done, so I could lock up after them and leave myself. They acquiesced.

At eleven, not having heard anything from them, I decided to go check on them, and discovered the Black Box dark and the girls vacated. Without having said a word to me, obviously, and I have no idea when they left or when I could have left instead of going steadily crazier doing nothing.

I kind of want to kill somebody, now.


(And, Niki, honeybear, babe, I love you, but your timing on that text message was really awful and now I just want to cry.)

Note to self: When someone gives you a handful of sugar, it's perfectly okay to mention that you were just listening to "tick tick...BOOM!" which contains a love song to sugar. It's not so okay to segue into a total synopsis, cast analysis, and comparison to "RENT".

Yeah, I really do have a problem with giving people wayyyyyy more information than they needed. I can't help it! That's just the way my brain works!


Formally started work on "Dracula" today. Ran sound for tonight's rehearsal, but starting tomorrow (at 10AM...) I'll be the light op. No, I'm not getting paid for this. But it's my last chance to work on a Regis show as a Regis student, and I get to work with Amanda (coworker Amanda, not roommate Amanda), and Natalie and Sam are both in the cast, and, yeah. Besides, what else am I going to do with my time...seeing as I don't have an outside job yet... *is depressing*


Yesterday: intense migraine and nausea. Went to bed at 6. Didn't get up until 8 this morning. That's 14 hours in bed. Yeah.


In less depressing news, it's holiday season again! If you've posted a wishlist, let me know. ladyfiresprite, I have yours bookmarked and am contemplating what I can get you. I haven't seen anyone else's, so if I missed it, let me know!! Mine will be going up soonish. I'm compiling it in my head. Ys.


Also coming soonish: keep an eye out for flocked posts filled with links.


I...don't have anything fannish to talk about except for the strike and I promised myself I wouldn't talk about that in this post. But, yeah. I'm horribly behind on Heroes and need to get caught up (question, flist: is it worth the bother of getting caught up? should I just start watching with this next episode and hope everything I missed was of no consequence? or are Matt/Mohinder/Molly adorable enough to make it worth watching all the episodes I missed?). PD and DSM didn't air this week. And...that's all I'm watching first-run right now.

No, wait! That's not true! I'm also watching SJA, and I am caught up on that, and all I can say is: Sarah Jane is LOVE. Young!Sarah included in that. I am a little bit in love with Alan and hopes he admits to his crush on Sarah v. soon and then maybe they fall in love and Maria and Luke can be sibs ys? Also I am confused as to whether I should ship Clyde with Luke or Maria because either has the potential to be ridiculously cute. In a nonsexual-young-person way. Ys? Or am I creepy for thinking about shipping them at all?

Also: How long 'til we get Raul back on Pushing Daisies? I want my Cheno/Esparza duet, dammit.


I want to write fic but words are not coming to me. :( It's v. sad, ys. I also kind of want to vid--I have two Sweet Charity vids to do--but my two bidders haven't gotten back to me on music choices/themes/etc. And I don't feel right working on an impulse vid while having the SC vids hanging over my head. Does that make sense or is it just my Catholic guilt kicking in again?


On the bright side, I've been listening to a ton of music lately and have almost completed my goal of making sure that all 5000+ songs in my iTunes have at least one playcount. The fact that I keep adding music while trying to reach this goal doesn't help, but I believe I can make it!!


(Oh! And another RL note: Regis is offering some RIDICULOUSLY AWESOME classes next semester. Including a literature class that lists "Princess Bride" and "Dirk Gently's Holistic Detective Agency" on the reading list, and a sci-fi film class. *flails* This is OF COURSE the semester AFTER I graduate. Of course, they couldn't offer these RIDICULOUSLY AWESOME classes while I was here to take them... *sigh*)

...I feel like hell.

Um. I was going to post my reactions to the Heroes S2 premiere and the Sarah Jane Adventures. But, well. I feel like hell. So quick sumups:

Heroes: ( mildly spoilery )

SJA: ( also mildly spoilery )

Also: Randall's speech at the xkcd meetup, wherein I am vaguely visible and make a bad crack about small children being crushed by our masses. If you're looking for me, I'm the skinny chick in the gray shirt with the blindingly red jacket over one arm.

And now, because of the aforementioned feeling like hell, I'm goin' to bed. Later, folks.

I have new posters! A RENT poster, a Star Wars poster, and a Che Guevara print. All for under $20 which is great 'cause I couldn't have afforded more than that.

I have now gone through all my classes at least once, and I think...I think I'll be good with it. I'm a little nervous about the interviewing strangers thing I'm going to have to do for Oral History and Performance, but there's a really great list of movies for Classics of American Cinema, James Joyce in 20th Century British Writers even if I have to deal with Joseph Conrad on the way, and Theater For Young Audiences is just a really great group and I'm already having fun with it. Now to see if/when I can afford my books for these classes.

Obv it is September 11th. (Yes, it still is, here, for another three and a half hours, approx.) Which makes me depressed and sad and wanting to avoid people who want to talk the politics of it because I don't agree with them. Around this time of year I keep finding myself ambushed by people who want to convince me that was is the only answer and that what the US is doing in Iraq is noble or some such thing and then I just want to hide under blankets until I can restore at least a thin veneer of faith in humanity. More people dying is not the answer to people dying, k?

On the bright side, encouraging my admittedly weak faith in humanity, Sweet Charity is up to $6344.61, with still quite a bit of time to go on the auction, and that is LOVELY and impressive and fandom rules.

I think there was something fandom-related I wanted to say but I don't remember what it was so it shall wait 'til tomorrow or whenever I remember it.

♥