a feeling inside in the back of my head like a song you still know from so long ago...

[chicafrom3]

Has everyone read this post? It's about the desexualizing of same-sex relationships in fandom and about asexual relationships in fandom and about asexual invisibility in slash (and wider) fandom and many related things and it is very very good and I thumbs-up it. A lot of the comments are excellent as well.

In very much related news, I have an itch to write fic about Kevin Donnelly coming to terms with his own asexuality even if he doesn't have a label for it (because I'm not sure Kevin would have a label for it).

There's a part of me that keeps saying no, I can't do that, it would be entirely too soapboxish and using someone else's character to explore my own thoughts about my own sexuality. On the other hand, that voice says pretty much the same things when I want to make an original character asexual and actually explore that in my original fic, as well. And you know what? I want asexual characters, and I want fic about asexual characters, and nobody's going to just hand that to me...the best place to start is by writing some myself, right?

To complicate matters more, actually writing that fic would probably necessitate a canon rewatch and also I'm not in a great writing space right now...aside from a couple hundred words of Better Than It Sounds every few days, I'm not really writing anything worthwhile right now. And it's up for debate if Better Than It Sounds is worthwhile anyway. ;)


...I swear tomorrow I will post things that have like squee and whatever in it.

Comments

[ageless-aislynn.livejournal.com]

I personally think that you should definitely write that fic about Kevin. Really, that's basically what fic or original writing is all about, it gives us the chance to explore something that's in us through the lens of these characters. You never know, that may be just the fic that somebody is out there waiting to read and they don't even know that they are until they read it. Or if nothing else, if it makes you happy, then that's the important thing! :D

These Two Cents brought to you by the "Hi From Aislynn!" Foundation... *giggles* ;)

Anyway, I'm sorry to hear that things are going kinda meh in the writing space department at the moment. *hugs* I know that feeling all too well. But I think that's great that you're still progressing with Better Than It Sounds! It's one of the hardest times for me to write (or vid) when I feel blah and uninspired and like everything I'm producing is just utter banal trite. :S But I've found if I can just keep on pushing through that, even if it's just a little bit at a time, eventually you break on through that bad headspace and come out on the other side of it.

So I'm hoping that will happen for you ASAP! You DEFINITELY have something worthwhile to say, something that only you CAN say, so don't lose faith in that! *many hugs* ♥!

[chicafrom3.livejournal.com]

*tacklehugs* The "Hi From Aislynn" Foundations give good advice! :D I'll give it a shot. It will involve canon rewatch and trying to get my writing mojo back, but I'll try!

The dead space in between inspiration is a terrible, terrible place to be. D: And one of the problems is that when you're in that space and everything you're creating just feel banal and bland and awful, you lose motivation to try to create, and it's impossible to break out of the dead space if you're not actively working out of it. Vicious cycles for the lose!

*more hugs* You're pretty wonderful. Don't forget that, okay? ♥